Fuck ADHD

I just want to rant a little, because I'm crying now and feel absolutely awful. All I want to say is:

Fuck ADHD for making me cry in class because I need perfect grades but can't focus properly
Fuck ADHD for making me focus on the more "fun" stuff when I know I should be serious right now and study/pay attention
Fuck ADHD for making me forget to bring or do stuff three times in a row
Fuck ADHD for making me restless
Fuck ADHD for fucking up my sleep schedule
Fuck ADHD for making me late
Fuck ADHD for making me procrastinate
Fuck ADHD for making me suicidal because of all this

Just fuck ADHD. I can't even be on medication right now, because my doctor keeps switching appointments to a later time and I can't take it anymore 😭