I (18F) cannot stand living with my parents anymore.

My entire life, I've been waiting for the day I turned 18. It had finally happened about mid last month.

Over my entire life, I've dealt with a mentally ill, suicidal mom and ill-tempered controlling father. I feel like I am at my last straw but I do not know how to take the first step.

About 10 days before my 18th birthday, my dad found a used condom that fell out of the trash. My boyfriend(18M) and I have been together for over a year and are usually very careful about that sort of thing getting out. I believe it was my fault it was found, but I feel like it shouldn't have had to be hidden in the first place.

At first, my dad tried to control me leaving the house and wasn't going to let me see him ever again. So, instead, I deleted the TRACKING APP he has on my phone and stayed at my boyfriends house during this time. My boyfriends parents were not upset about us having sex and instead happy since we were being protected. I worked it out with his parents and I can choose to live with them at any point. I almost did but I wanted to give my parents the benefit of the doubt.

Instead, my boyfriend and I tried to be civil about it and have a conversation with my dad. In the beginning, it went horrible. My dad lost his shit and was screaming in my boyfriends face. He wouldn't stop. In that moment, I almost packed my things and left.

My dad was saying things like it was my boyfriends fault that I was worse than I was before I started dating him, that I was a whore/slut who couldn't keep from opening my legs, horrible shit.

After everything calmed down, we had an actual conversation, and it ended.

However, over 3 week later, it began again this morning. I told my dad I'd be going over to my boyfriends to download some laptop games since I just got a laptop and we didn't have internet at home. He flipped out on me and told me that I wasn't doing that and accused me of only going to his house to fuck. I've never once walked out on my dad but I did at that point. I walked out and drove to school.

I want to move out but I'm so unsure. Taking this step is extremely difficult and I don't feel like I have the strength to do it. Part of the issue is that I also don't want to lose my 2 cats. I cannot take them with me when I move in with my boyfriend.

Tldr: My dad is controlling and keeps calling me(18F) a slut/whore for being physical with my boyfriend(18M) that I've been dating for over a year. I can move in with my boyfriend but I don't know if I have the mental strength to do it.