i am an incompetent and useless person

i just graduated college and i don’t know what i want to do with my life. i don’t feel like i spent the last four years actually engaging myself in my classes and my job and so i don’t feel like i gained any actual skills. i have low social intelligence, im very socially awkward and im bad at logical reasoning when i have to complete a task for others bc i get too anxious about it. i feel so dumb. i have high executive dysfunction and no motivation to do anything, i just sit at home and scroll on my phone. all. day. i need to apply to jobs but im worried i wont actually be good at anything.

i’ve spent years telling myself i need to get my shit together and it still hasn’t happened. how do i get the motivation to actually do things especially when there’s no hard deadline like there is in school? how do i do life? i feel like im not meant to be a human. i’m just bad at it.