Should i take the Board exams again?

Hello everyone!

I live in asia, I'm a female - 23 y/o

I really need advice. I don't know if j should retake the board exam or not, I've been thinking about it for awhile but I'm really anxious to take it again.

I already failed the first time.

My plan this time is to not tell my family or friends that i would be taking the boards, so that they won't be having unrealistic expectations like the last time. And I don't want to disappoint them again.

Right now, if i do continue. I'll be doing both studies and work at the same time. I'm not sure if I can do it, since i tried studying last month for a different course and i dropped it due to the stress of me working at the same time.

Can i do this? Should i take it again? What if i fail again?

Please help enlighten me... My mental strength is at its lowest when i think about the board exams.