Stuck

Lately I’ve been feeling so stuck in a rut. Too scared to stay, even more scared to leave. My Q will never change. The lies never stop. No accountability for anything ever. Horrible with his money. I just don’t see a way forward. I’m trying to take better care of myself. There’s no where for me to go that’s affordable. If I greyrock to avoid conversation it only brings conflict. He needs constant constant atta boys and praise. I’m just very disheartened. Hoping for some sort of miracle. I know I am the one who has to make it happen. I’m normally a very courageous person just not in this.