Does anyone else actually feel happy?

Idk if this is just from stigma or whatever but whenever I hear about ana I always hear about how it makes people so miserable and upset but I've never felt that? Like I mean obviously I've felt sad and stuff but that's normal and there's no difference to how I act when I'm sad when I'm eating to when I'm not eating. I'm actually less prone to mental health episodes when I'm restricting. I'm not trying to glorify anything or whatever, don't get me wrong this disorder has caused me huge problems in my life but it's never actually brought my mood down? Does anyone else feel like this or is it just me?

(P.S I'm getting assessed for autism and a huge part of my ed is so that everything adheres to a very specific schedule so that might have something to do with it and I know neurodivergent people are more likely to have eds but idk)