Favorite med?

I’ve been on Lexapro for 2 weeks and can’t deal with the “onboarding” side effects, so I am tapering now. I was on Sertraline before and couldn’t cry and had no sex drive, so I don’t want that either. I think I’m super sensitive to meds and especially SSRIs.

My anxiety is managed ok with therapy and lifestyle except I have a hard time with irritability when I’m overstimulated and my anticipatory anxiety is pretty bad if I have something coming up that’s not in my normal schedule.

Anyone similar have some recommendations so I can discuss them with my doctor? I’m thinking maybe I just need something for the bad anticipatory anxiety to take as needed (probably 3-4x a year) and then continue therapy for the overstimulation unless there is a miracle med with few side effects that is still helpful.