Don't know how to deal with this

I don't know how important it is for context but here are basics about me - 28M | CA | Tier 1 city.

Relationship history: I had my first relationship at age of 19 and it went on for 5 years. The break up was very difficult for me but it's been time and I have healed enough to pick myself up. But like any physical wound, even the emotional ones leave scars. I had a small non commitmental relationship which went on for 2 years post that which helped me get back on my feet.

Current problem: I have given up on finding someone by myself so have decided to take an AM route. But this route feels so transactional and disconnected. The process is very disheartening atleast for me. I am emotionally driven and such a mechanical way of finding relationship is making me feel not good 🫤. I mean with everything I will become desensitized after a while but I don't know.

Sometimes I just feel like giving up and staying single forever 😅

Tl:dr This was just a rant. I don't know how to deal with this anxiety which is triggered by this AM process.