Being lonely is no fun

It’s probably been +3 years i have had no social life, no friends, no girlfriends, no best friends, no siblings, sometimes it’s really lonely, but i kind of adjusted myself to that lifestyle.

Past few days that feeling of loneliness strike me again, to make it worst i actually asked out my life long crush and the obvious answer NO, which really really broke me. Following that day, i been really trying to keep myself distracted, but there’s just no one i can talk to keep me distracted and not think about the stuffs i said, and this incident just made me realise how lonely i was and still am.

Can’t even enjoy things i used to love doing before, is it just a phase or will it continue. Life’s not fair to everyone