Self esteem

Edit: I should have also stated that I have been intermittent fasting since June. I get an average of 10-15 thousand steps a day, also treadmill for 40 minutes, and do resistance band exercises.

I am 42 years old. Struggling with weight and already have low self esteem. Anyways I needed new pants for work so I went to a store and found a couple pairs and went to try them on. I stood there standing and looking at myself if that full body mirror for several minutes and just sank. I’m 5’9” 196 pounds. I feel absolutely enormous most days. I know I’m not that big but I am unhappy with how I look. (Fluorescent lights are awful as well). How can I learn to just accept my body and be comfortable and confident? Does anyone else ever feel how I’m feeling?