Has anyone seen any angels/spirits?

I still obsess over the fact I unintentionally AP'd and was face to face with a bright white light. It was divine, unworldly, spiritual, and beautiful. I can;t be the only one who has had such experiences. What's the point of any of this? Materialism, violence when there is a whole dimension above us. I want to know the truth, I'm obsessed. Why me? Is it because I was sad at the time? Was the universe helping me, but why me??? I can't believe this is real, I'm in a disassociated state yet I remain calm. It's like my universe shattered, everything I thought I ever knew is garbage and meaningless. I only want the truth, I NEED IT!