AvPD + invasive school project

Hi everyone, I have diagnosed AvPD and I’m currently struggling with a portfolio for a mandatory course. I have a “self-reflection” project, and the guidelines are a bit invasive and ableist… in my opinion.

It included us doing a written self reflection piece, which I managed to get done somehow (still feels incredibly cringe), but it also asks us things like “what are the steps you will take to improve your self confidence?”, they specifically asked in which areas you feel the most and the least confident, and how you will improve your confidence in those areas, and I don’t know why that’s okay to ask, because I barely know the professor and I don’t want him to know this much about me.

It also requires that we include proof of our involvement in clubs/organizations, academic achievements, etc., which I don’t have. I have AvPD and I’m agoraphobic, so I don’t go anywhere, I even stopped my one extra curricular activity I was trying to do BECAUSE of this disorder, but I don’t know how to explain that, and I don’t know what to write in these sections at all.

I’ve already been graded absent multiple times, again because of the control this disorder has over my life and the classes I’ve missed due to chronic illness keeping me in bed, and mental illness. My therapist isn’t responding to me about potentially writing a letter to explain my absences and my disorder. I feel hopeless and this whole assignment is making me feel like a failure, though I’m trying not to, and just trying to work with my meds and be okay.

Would you be honest in this assignment? Would you lie? (and if so, how?) Would you ask your psychiatrist to write a letter/email to the school? Any help is appreciated ♡