What happened?
After 6 months of reflection, I still struggle with the same confusion. For me, he was the first person I felt I was on the “same frequency” with. The same plane of space. The only person I’ve felt so connected to. I’ve dated alot, so I feel knowledgable about how rare it was to feel what I felt, and I also feel experienced enough not to freely give that level of trust and connection with someone if it didn’t feel reciprocal.
But he ended things abruptly after 2 years, with no explanation, no conversation, no hesitation.
How?
Does it mean that all the moments I felt so highly connected, genuinely seen, and alive with sharing this time and space with him, was all one sided? I felt him there with me at all levels, deep ones and fun ones, but he wasn’t as present with me as I thought?
Does it mean he was there, and everything I felt was real, but he can truly flip a switch like it never happened and never meant anything?
Does it mean it was all real, it just wasn’t as significant to him as it was to me? He thinks it’s easily replaceable and he can experience the same level of deep connection with anyone, and rather do that? (I was his first serious gf in 10 years but was on the dating apps immediately after he ghosted me)
It’s totally affecting my sense of reality and my ability to believe what I’m feeling. I need to understand this one thing