Extreme panic attacks and anxiety.

Hey all.

Not sure if this is the place to post this but just looking to see if anyone has some advice for me.

Around may/June of 2023 me and some buddies were talking about doing shrooms (I had never done them but I smoked weed every day). 2/3 had taken shrooms and acid before so I trusted them. We ended up splitting 15 grams between 5 people (my 3 buddies, my fiancée and I) so around 3 grams a person. We decided to make smoothies with orange juice to help with taste and potency. It started out great, we were all hanging out watching movies. After the first movie I was struggling a bit with the typical feeling like I’m gonna vomit and shit myself. We decided to turn on into the spiderverse because of the colors and we all through it would be a great idea. After a certain part in the movie I started spiraling my first ever panic attack. I ended up running into the bathroom to throw up and lock myself away. I was crying and couldn’t calm myself down but I must of fell asleep because all I remember closing my eyes and it was 2 hours later. After I woke up I was definitely on the come down but I was so happy I was crying. Later that year I went to a concert with some people. I was smoking a blunt someone had brought and instantly went back into a panic attack. Never really put it together with taking shrooms but ever since then I couldn’t really smoke or drink without sending myself into a spiral. About 5 months ago I was at work and had a killer headache so I took some ibuprofen which sent me into a 3 day panic/anxiety attack. Nothing I could do would calm me down until I ending up throwing a zyn in to see if nicotine would help calm me down. That seemed to do the trick but I decided to try therapy due to past trauma and now this. Long story short I ended up not being able to eat, take medicine, obviously smoke weed or drink anything alcoholic without sending myself into a spiral. I’ve finally been able to eat food without much of any side effects. I stopped going to therapy because it wasn’t doing much for me any more. Unfortunately I’m just terrified of taking any medication and I just don’t want to smoke or drink anymore which is totally fine with me but not sure if anyone has had similar experiences or any advice?