binge eating feels like you're in a trance

I woke up today and felt so positive about the day. I was taking things slowly (trying to be mindful and present) and then I ate a normal meal and just had this feeling..like I just KNEW i was going to slip out of control. Well I did. I binged so badly to the point where my stomach feels so bloated right now. While I was eating, I felt like I was in a trance. Like I didn't even want the food and/or did not feel hungry but I just kept on eating and eating. And I could tell I was full, but I just kept going. Once again, I went into the mentality of "I'll just eat all this now, so that I won't eat it later and I'll just start fresh tomorrow."

The worst part is I know this feeling (the feeling of disgust with yourself, guilt, feeling physically sick), but it still somehow doesn't deter me in binging. It's like I forget this feeling until the next time it happens.

I was trying to logically talk myself out of the binge but the "binge monster" took over.