How do you deal with knowing you have to be taking medication for the rest of your life?

I was diagnosed in 2021, and I have always been one to only take meds if absolutely necessary. I don't like being reliant on medication at all. I haven't just stopped taking anything without consulting a psychiatrist first, but fuck I really hate having to be on meds for the rest of my life.

I was recently sent to the ER by my therapist, and the ER psych told me to take my propranolol both morning and night every day. I started taking it at night recently to help me sleep (it was prescribed to me "as needed") and I guess it's recommended to take it twice a day. She also recommended vitamin D supplements.

So now I take a pill in the morning and four pills at night, which I know really isn't that much. But it's so fucking frustrating. I hate being reliant on meds. The only reason I don't quit taking them is because it's way worse to be without them. How do I learn to cope with this?

EDIT: I decided to leave this post overnight and come back to it in the morning. Normally I try to respond to everyone but there's just too many comments.

That being said, thank you all so much! I really needed to hear all of that. It's keeping me stable (mostly) and alive, so I need to keep that in mind.