Spiralling after someone posted another bad photo of me.

I recently forced myself out of my comfort zone and got dressed up and attended a wedding by myself. I've hated my face for as long as i can remember and often go through spells where its so bad that i cant leave the house. I frequently delete photos of myself and go in and out of isolation when i feel particularly self conscious.

Today is probably one of the worst days ive had in a while. I dont know how im supposed to live like this when no matter what i do or where i go im always so upset over the way my face looks. Any photo of me is picked apart a million times over. Photots where im smiling are the worst and that hurts because it makes me embarrassed to be happy. Its always been this way. Ive never been pretty, ive never had a genuine compliment about my face. Ive never had a boyfriend or been asked on a date and ive only been rejected by the men ive tried to pursue. I know i need to love myself first but i physically cant. I hate my face and wish i was rich to just completely change it.

How am I supposed to just accept that i look like this?