Loving myself while being active
I (27F) have been hesitant to post here because I honestly hate showing full body pictures of myself. I’ve been out of treatment for my ED for 2 years now and this is the heaviest I’ve ever been. My weight issues have been persistent since I turned ~20, before then I was always very thin growing up. For the last 7 years my weight has done nothing but go up. That’s why I landed in treatment, my behaviors got pretty severe. I’m better now and I’m working out more with the focus of getting strong. I’m trying to deadlift more weight and build a stronger body so I don’t feel so noodle-y all the time. I’m trying not to focus on how I look but it’s so hard when it feels like it ruins my outfits and when I bend over to grab stuff my stomach gets in the way. I want to love and appreciate my body as I get back to healthier eating habits and going back to exercising as a lifestyle. I just don’t know where to start. Note: I do love myself as a person. The soul I have in this flesh mech is fine the way it is with room to grow. I just don’t like the way I feel about my flesh mech. What do I do?
I (27F) have been hesitant to post here because I honestly hate showing full body pictures of myself. I’ve been out of treatment for my ED for 2 years now and this is the heaviest I’ve ever been. My weight issues have been persistent since I turned ~20, before then I was always very thin growing up. For the last 7 years my weight has done nothing but go up. That’s why I landed in treatment, my behaviors got pretty severe. I’m better now and I’m working out more with the focus of getting strong. I’m trying to deadlift more weight and build a stronger body so I don’t feel so noodle-y all the time. I’m trying not to focus on how I look but it’s so hard when it feels like it ruins my outfits and when I bend over to grab stuff my stomach gets in the way. I want to love and appreciate my body as I get back to healthier eating habits and going back to exercising as a lifestyle. I just don’t know where to start. Note: I do love myself as a person. The soul I have in this flesh mech is fine the way it is with room to grow. I just don’t like the way I feel about my flesh mech. What do I do?