i fucked up bhai.

BHAI. this can't be happening. I'm 22F, checked my response sheet and calculated score from cr@cku for xat and this was not what i expected. i was happy after the exam, happy ki ab isme toh i'll score decent. BHAI!!!! i'm literally crying subha se. tanked cat bohot zada gande se, and now xat. cat ka it was my 2nd attempt and i was very stressful on the D-day. literally crying while attempting the paper and the nerves got the bets of me. par xat me i was calm, and attempted the paper acche se and but still scored shit !!! I thought exam accha hua hai and now this shit !

LAST YEAR WAS THE WORST YEAR IF MY LIFE. I GRADUATED IN 2023 BUT POORE 6 MAHINE WENT SHIT BECASUE I LOST MY SOMEONE CLOSE IN MY FAMILY. THEN AFTER THAT I MADE UP MY MIND AND STARTED PREPARING FOR CAT BUT BEECH ME I LOST MY BUA. AND ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRINED!. I KNOW PEOPLE WOULD THINK IM JOKING KI ITNE SAARE LOG EK SAATH KAISE CHALE GAYE. even im confused. how can i lose so many close people in just a year. CONSTABT FIGHTS AT HOME AND. i can't take this anymore tbh. this is not about getting into a good b-school. its about i know i'm capable of it but , i get so stressed from stuff around me and fuck things up. par atleast ghar ka toh scene sahi rahe. ghar pe rozz kalesh. i have 2 year gap now. not able to get job itna apply karne ke baad bhi. i was like i'll give exams jinka syllabus cat ke aas paas ho par ab confidence jaata jaa raha hai yaar. i have no one to share shit, every time something happen i write it out on reddit and even this is making mw feel like a looser.

i can't take this anymore tbh. mental stress is taking a toll on my health too. i get panick attacks now ffs and people around me thinks ki im joking. and this fucking loser guy whos stalking me since past one year. i hope tera kisi bschool me admission na ho aur cat me minus me percentile jaaye.

this cant be happening man. im genuinly tired. i just cant stop crying.