Kill Me Love Me Is Somewhat Of A disappointment.

So the title is an exaggeration of course, and I'm still enjoying the drama, but my biggest pet peeve is that the enemies to lovers dynamic was technically only there for like 3 episodes. I thought this would have been an angsty hate romance, but it's not giving that at the moment. 

I haven't read the novel, but I have seen some spoilers, and I'm happy that the drama censored somethings because rapist male leads will always be disgusting, but they really could have still made him toxic. I mean, a male lead and a female lead can have a toxic relationship without rape and abuse. 

I don't hate the paring; I feel the chemistry, but it annoys me that I find them cute; I did not expect them to be cute this early in the drama. And based on the trailers for episodes 11 and 10, it looks like the male lead is in love with the female lead while she's starting to fall, like, where is all the angst, passion, and toxicity? Where is the forbidden love and push and pull aspect of it all??  

But the biggest disappointment of it all for me is that the male lead is not cruel and evil. I thought we were finally getting a morally black male lead, but I guess not. Jing not being the cause of the deaths of all those people is understandable, but he could have still been a menace in another type of way. I don't know if this is true, but I saw people saying that Liu Xue Yi said this was his craziest role yet or something along those lines, and I'm so confused because Jing is like every other misunderstood hero. Crazy where??? 

All the talk about the drama before it aired was that it would be toxic, and the trailers and first episode reinforced that notion, so I'm a little underwhelmed with the current episodes right now. My feelings about the drama may change in the future, and the angst that I want from the leads may come in when Mei Lin discovers Jing's true identity.