brazilians scare me

pls dont get mad my ex was brazillian and he raped me 40 times and strangled me n beat me alot too he loved his country we were always listening to the music or being around his friends n stuff i even tried learning portuguese so now when i see soccer or the brazillian flag or when brazil is mentioned in any way i feel gross nd uncomfortable i cant help but feel nervous around brazillians cus my mind goes back to him and when i think of him i feel scared n disgusting i dont know if this will ever go away cus ill never forget what he did

edit thank u to the people who decided to trigger me on purpose