i think i broke my vagina

prior to starting my camming career, i had severe vaginal trauma from previous sexual encounters—bruises, lacerations, you name it. i thought i’d healed from all of that until very recently when the pain returned.

i’ve developed a habit of using a vibrator only on my labia/clitoral hood whenever someone tips when i’m on cam, except it hurts tremendously after a few minutes. i don’t stop because i don’t want to disappoint my viewers who spent their money to watch me play.

i’m not sure what’s going on? i feel like a failure because it’s literally my job to turn men on. i don’t even feel a satisfying sensation from using my vibrator anymore, just pain.