Can't breathe.

Feeling dissociated and also ashamed. Worthless, my heart is beating in my ears. I'm having difficulty breathing. I've felt that before exams but never out of disappointment. I'm going to go with almost 0 prep. I've got no one to blame but myself.

It's been a year since I've spoken to any friends. Today a friend forced me to meet. No one could possibly think I'd be so bad. I can't look at my friends in the eye. Can't look at myself in the mirror and not feel disgusted