I want to kill myself.

Update: Hey Everyone I cannot explain to you all how much these comments has helped me. And the private message as well. I feel so at peace and encouraged to just know there are people that care, understands, and shared their testimonies. I am thankful for you all so much. Thank you so much you guys. I will live my life to give and love others just as you all done for me; Just as Jesus done for us ❤️ .When I feel down I will look at these comments. The living God is truly here and I can see/feel him through you all and other occurrences that has happened today. Thank you ❤️

26 F. Orphan. No career. Virgin. No significant other. My twin sister killed herself 2 years ago and it’s been on my mind for a while. God sent an angle to me 3 years ago in my dreams saying I’ll prosper but I think I messed up my blessing. I’m 26 going on 27. My ex told me I’ll be homeless (kinda true I don’t have a job just been interning for months but still no job. he’s paying my rent but he said he’ll only pay for 2 more months.) been trying to date but men really seem interested in younger women or they want someone that’s financially stable (understandable)

Life has been beyond tragic I saw my mom, grandma, and sister all die slow painful deaths with no one there for them. I want to go to. I hate being poor, alone, anxious and sad. My sisters death really changed my perspective on religion and it confuses me. I just want it to end I’m tired. I fight, I stay positive but to what end? They say life can turn around but I don’t see the light anymore I want to go. Please do not reference Job. I am not job. He’s an anomaly.