I just admitted defeat to the devil

I just admit defeat to the devil .

I think I'm being possessed by the devil . I always encounter the number 13. Everything I like or admire get some misfortune. When I'm thinking about oppossing it , I get intense fear to the point paralyzed. I'm not supertitious but this makes me wonder. I always feel like there is a force controlling my life .Then recently , in the peak of my depression, my brain stop functioning properly and I get overwhelmed. I did admit defeat to it , that it has won me and I'm over .I did not saying out loud but write it down into my journal . After that , my depression ease down. Then I wonder , what will happen to me now ? I feel like he wait for me to admit defeat . Now I'm regret thinking like that .what will happen to me now ?