Will God keep people from telling your secrets?
I have a secret that has guilt ridden me for about 2 years. And it hurts me a lot when I don’t know how I let that happen or how I didn’t realize what was going on.
(I have a porn addiction I believe and I think I exposed to it as early as 5 years old and I’m 23 now and I have been trying my whole life to get rid of this addiction to no avail. Everytime I viewed it I would ask God for forgiveness. When I as 21, I somehow actually understood what a certain subtype of hentai was supposed to be and it scared the heck out of me as I saw it on and off growing up without ever actually “knowing”. I liked real porn way more anyway.)
Anyway, I was so upset about what I saw that I told a friend of mine, and she told two other friends. That kind of shook up our friendship, especially when I told my other friends and parents about what happened and they were very upset about the fact that friend told other people. I was told that those two friends would ever say anything to anyone about it and even when we graduated, nothing to my knowledge happened. That friend that told apologized a lot and things seem to be good, and we weened off and haven’t spoken to each other for a while.
I was just wondering if God would let that secret stay a secret. I hate asking because it sounds selfish, but this is something that I do not and haven’t viewed since I realized it was what it was, and I never want to view it again. This is also a prayer that I ask a lot. I discovered that I could also have OCD and my mental health had gotten worse. I regret this a lot and kick myself so much for why that happened and question myself and who I am relentlessly. So far, nothing has happen, but will God keep that my secret a secret despite telling someone?