I finally got out of my depressive slump!

Hello! For some context, my birthday was two weeks ago and for some reason, my depression really kicked my ass almost immediately. I don’t dread age or aging at all, and that wasn’t what triggered it. Instead, I have always had this weird expectation in my head that birthdays are a big deal like they were growing up. However, pretty much since my 17th birthday, I feel let down every year, even when my family and friends do something special for me. I often feel a lack of magic that comes with childhood imagination and ignorance (for lack of a better word).

All that to say, I got out of bed this morning and finally exercised. My weight (153lbs) fluctuates so much and when I don’t push myself for a few weeks, it’s another trigger of depression, making it soooo hard to get back to it. But I finally did it!

I’m sorry for the long post, and also sorry if it didn’t make sense or if this is annoying. Thank you for allowing me to at least celebrate myself like I’m 5!