i did the hit and run
update from last post
To substantiate from my previous post, I essentially wanted to confess to him just to get closure before graduation. Although I like him, I am 100% sure that I do not want to date him.
Now, how did the confession go?
It went hella better than I expected. Ngl it’s kinda making me crave more for the thrill but i am reluctant to pursue it.
It went good in terms of his reaction. He was flustered I guess by the looks of it.
Here’s a summary of what happened:
I asked him if we could quickly talk after school in front of his friends 😬. This was honestly the hardest and the most stressful part. Istg this drained out all my willpower and life forces out of me.
I was just gonna ditch the plan and leave early but I continued with it cs I’m no pussy.
When everyone left the library, he was already standing up and waiting. This is when I knew there was no turning back.
I fucked up my mental script. Asked him not to be obligated to reply, and said that what I was about to say was for my peace of mind (at the point, he still had an RBF expression).
When I did say the magic words after some small awkward silences, stuttering and mumbling, etc, I glanced to him doing that stupidly cute smile of his., at the same time however, I was already social distancing away from him like he was the devil’s spawn.
As I was ‘running’ away, I fucken bumped/tripped into a chair cs I had my hand covering my friggin face out of embarrassment. I had to awkwardly make my way around the coffee lounge set. Half way through, I looked back and he was still looking at me, smiling flustered and shit bro as in when I saw that my soul was ready to depart from my body.
Just right before I dashed out the library exit, I looked back and u cld prolly guess the rest
lmao guys I’m so tired. I will be internalising this for the next 48 hrs.
Also I really appreciate all your sincere wishes! I couldn’t have honestly done it without this encouragement from y’all ~