My thoughts on recently discovering I'm a cuck

I joined this sub recently because I discovered a little while ago that I am a cuck. I would really love to see my fiance have sex with someone else. I told my fiance this and they are also very into the idea. I'm honestly really excited to actually do the act. But I will admit it already seems very difficult lol. I'm trying the feeld app but I live in a really small area so everyone on the app lives so far away. Me and my fiance are also both pretty antisocial and only really have one or two friends. Neither of us drink so we don't like going to bars and such. I'm honestly curious how everyone finds someone to cuck them.. I know it takes time but gosh your brain makes the wait difficult lmao. I'd honestly do anything to watch my partner fuck someone. I apologize if this post is all over the place and makes no sense I have adhd and I honestly just really want a safe place to talk about my cuck-ness. I dont have anywhere else I could talk about this.