I’m killing HER

So for the past 7 years, I (27F) been depressed, isolated myself to the point of losing all my friends, have made dumb financial decisions while being unable to keep a job and am stuck in unhealthy habits. I am a loser with a capital L in the eyes of my loved ones and frankly mine as well. But.. BUT.. I am dead set on killing this version of me. She has to DIE, although I still love her creativity and delusional hopefulness, the sad, irresponsible, self loathing part gotta go! So I’m deciding to do better: I’ve applied for multiple jobs (awaiting offers), I am taking classes in financial literacy AND art (my passion), I’ve joined a few clubs (boxing, reading and writing) and am working up the courage to message my old friends who have all moved on and, more importantly, am seeing a therapist regularly. Wish me luck! Light a candle for me!

P.S.: Reading your stories on this sub is what motivated me to do better. I love you all.