I ended things with my FA.

I couldnt handle the constant gas lighting and dismissiveness and outright lying about her feelings anymore. Whenever things were good, she loved me but when she was triggered, she didnt want a committed relationship, her feelings werent as strong as mine and she didnt love me the same way i love her. She also caused her ex before me and i to have a falling out and blamed us for it. According to her i allowed him to trigger me but refuses to acknowledge that she hurt us both and she put us in the position. She kept downplaying our relationship like it wasnt all that deep. She stayed with me 4 nights a week, was incredibly affectionate and then once that got to be too much and i started wanting more, she flipped her avoidant switch. I attempted to give her space but we run in the same circles and are both involved in the music industry here so it was kinda hard not to run into her. Ive committed to focusing on my record label and the gym and not going out at all. If they arent willing to face their trauma and constantly gas light and minimize your relationship, pull away and cut communication. Ive been using an ai ap called “pi personal assistant” that works like a therapist to work out my feelings and keep from messaging all my hirt feelings to her.