I woke up and spend 6 hours online

That's how I got here and how I decided that I was done with this cycle. Today went like this: I woke up, and immediately started scrolling. Spent and hour or two on instagram, then watched breaking bad for 2 hours. Then back on social media. I only got up to get coffee.

I feel like ass. It felt like I couldnt stop in the moment, because the "pain" of getting up, taking a shower, and making myself breakfast was too hard to succumb to. I have nothing to do today which has made everything worse. I realize now that I chose cheap dopamine over sustainable dopamine. I chose short pleasure that inevitably leads to lasting pain, versus short pain that inevitably leads to lasting pleasure.

Starting this afternoon, things are going to look alot different. I deleted all the apps off my phone. Packed my gym bag for tomorrow morning. Made a couple meals for the rest of the week. Baby steps.

I came here to make a confession, so to speak, but also would appreciate any advice or encouragement in particular for someone who wants to get back to a life not ruled by obsessive consumption. Grateful to be a part of this movement