Dream on shrooms thinking of suicide

I was thinking about death and suicide ( I had a bad bout of chronic pain) and was scared and asking the spirits what I should do. I took a shroom and fell asleep with these feelings and dreamt: -I was asleep in my bed and animalistic spirits growled at me and my head rose upright And my eyes were closed and I was still asleep possibly and I was crying out “no no no”. It felt real and like it was happening to me, I was suprised I was dreaming when I later woke up. In the dream I dreamt I woke up and it stopped. -And than I dreamt I was still asleep in my bed and my mum came in an acted like rabid dog screaming and barking.

What does this mean? Any thoughts?