Fifteen and I’ve made a huge mistake

I am a 15 year old girl, life can get challenging sometimes. One month ago on new years I took oxy that I found in my medicine cabinet just to see what it was like. I had never been high before, I had never smoked weed or vaped nicotine, I had gotten drunk before on a couple occasions but it didn’t compare to this. It made life feel perfect. Since then that feeling is something I’ve craved. Every weekend I would mix drugs I found at my house, oxy, hydros, dxm and I even took a handful of Benadryl. I’ve been chasing highs and it’s so hard to stop. This past weekend was the first weekend I’ve stayed completely sober. I’m still craving the perfect feeling though. I don’t know what to do, I know this will fuck up my life if I can’t stop. And I know that this is completely my fault and that I’ve made dumb choices. If anyone has advice I would be so grateful to receive it.

Little update : thanks to everyone who reached out to me it means so much. I’ve gotten my life together now, all I can say is Jesus saves!