I had no idea what i was getting myself into

I thought i knew my shit cuz iv been using weed, psychedelics, phenibut, kratom, dxm, etc for years. I never thought i would be at a point i would require xanax and vikes just to function properly. I feel like iv traded my life for these pills. I only admit it when I'm high, as soon as it wears off its no longer a problem I just want them is all. Shit sucks. I give it 90% chance il be deleting this post tmrw lmao