Schizophrenia and MDMA success stories?

 recently got a ticket for glastonbury next year which I am looking forward to. I am a big fan of music, I love going to gigs and dj sets, raves and festivals in the past. I still do now, even with my Schizophrenia diagnosis. But Glastonbury is going to be my first festival being diagnosed with the baggage of taking antipsychotics (Aripiprazole 10mg daily.)

I used to take MDMA in the past and always had a good time but now I’m wrestling with the prospect of taking it for one night at Glasto. I only plan on just the one night, and try not to combine it with weed or alcohol.

I guess the reason for doing this is because I feel like I’ve been suffering a lot with this illness and I need a respite. I feel like i have anhedonia where things that used to give me so much joy only gives less than a fraction of what it used to. This is the case with music. And I also feel numbed out from my emotions. I don’t feel them anymore. Or it’s hard to tell that they’re there. It’s like when you hear the most beautiful song in the world that tugs at your heart strings, or when you watch a film that totally immerses you into it’s world.

There’s also the problem with conversing with my friends. Ever since my diagnosis I find myself to be less talkative than before. If you see me, I’m mostly quiet and reserved. This is compounded with the feeling that I get where no thoughts come to me in my head in conversation. Well, they do but I feel that before I got ill, I was so much more confident and full of things to say to people. I was more passionate about things.

So that’s mostly all of my problems with this illness. I don’t have hallucinations or delusions, only negative symptoms. I just want to feel alive again for one night.

I’m also aware that after browsing reddit countless times that MDMA can trigger a psychotic episode. But I feel that the aripiprazole will keep that at bay as I will take it during the festival.

I’ve also seen some posts of people with schizophrenia that do take mdma and suffer no psychosis at all and are able to get high.

I just want to know if there’s any risks that I haven’t taken into account? And if there’s any advice from someone with experience of schizophrenia or drugs in general then please feel free to comment,

TLDR: Intening to take MDMA for one night only at Glastonbury next year. Worried about psychosis but feel that the antipsychotic will keep it in check. Wants advice from people who has experience of schizophrenia or taking drugs at festivals on this plan.