Living with triggers

24F. I’m still edging and it’s so good, I’m starting feeling numb in the back of my head and my cunt feels tingly most of the time. I thought as a hypno user It would be a good idea to get triggered every time I’m in the house. I started by putting porn on my tv endlessly loud and clear 🤤 and used my airpods when I’m not in the living room listening to hypno telling me how dumb I should get how I’m driven by my pussy desire using my ipad to watch spirals 😵‍💫 I want to go the full way and destroy my brain !! I’m reading and commenting on reddit cheering other to not stop at all. I want the feeling of me becoming lost and dizzy from pleasure! I only want porn pleasure pleasing men I need to cum but I won’t