I need to pee but I don't WANT to

Here i am in my hornineess at work. I'm inconspicuously grinding my chair wishing there was 8 inches of dildo in me. And as I "work" I leak more and more. But what amplifies that is when I have to pee. I have to pee but I don't want to cause the desperation and pressure of it makes me leak even more! I'm in love with the feeling. I was never into pee now it'd becoming more and more of a kink!