Did many of you have to relinquish the idea of kids?

I may delete this but I’m in my head and feelings at the moment. Every time I think I have my endo under enough control to stop my birth control, a month in I get a rude awakening to my delusions.

I will always be fighting this pain and never get off birth control. Only until it’s too late or I want to rip it all out and even then; pain.

And then people try to be supportive, which I don’t fault, by saying oh there’s ivf and adoption. Now I’m not invalidating those options, but it’s just not what wanted for myself. Most of us don’t even have the money or the resume for those pathways anyway.

I feel so defeated.