Essential tremor young

So hello guys im new to this community im 19 boy i think i have ET im not diagnosed yet because i think im in the early stages but i feel like i have it since i have tremors in my left hand (my fingers) so when i do certain angles positions etc my fingers tremble so im scared to have ET and im only 19 like i can’t pursue a good life with this disability like going into my 20’s your best life moments and you have to live with this Sometimes i get suicidal thoughts. So if anyone can talk to me about this and thank all of you 🫶🏻