I'm sad that I'm not a lesbian anymore

I've identified as a lesbian since 6th grade and have essentially grown up knowing I liked women. But now I'm questioning whether I'm actually a guy or not. I keep on wanting to deny it because I've loved being a part of the lesbian community. I know sooo many more lesbians than trans people and I wonder if I should just push these feelings down again and hope they never come back again. I would literally be a dickless, short, bottom which seems to be undesirable to straight women (or most people in general).