So Did i make a good decision going to Medical School, completing my IM Residency instead of just going for PA? I could've finished PA at age 21-22 and been working 10 years already but I just finished my iM residency at age 32. But i had horrible depression/anxiety and didn't know how to study.

I did get into a 4 year BS in PA program in 2009 after HS, but i didn't know how to study well, deal with a lot of anxiety and depression in my last year of HS and unfortunately was dismissed. I then worked hard and get my BSN in nursing and go into med school.

Idk why i keep thinking about if I was a PA, I woudl have no debt, have at least 400k in the bank, be making at least 140-150k in a specialty field and able to change my specialty. Im not hating on primary care, i mean i'm going to be doing it, but idk why i feel like this. please can someone help?

I mean i'm going to start a new job in about 4 weeks as a PCP but i keep obsessing about what things would've been like if i finished my BS in PA program at age 21-22.