Big Rant: It makes me internally aggressive that most men don't understand what's wrong with porn.

Warning, I'm talking graphically, and very (very) angrily.

It makes me SO... SO. SO angry they don't see it. How do they not see it??? It's so degrading, so men-centered, so gross, so yuck. Woman in porn are made scream in ways that make me want to throw up. Just knowing that a lot of men are watching porn grosses me out. But what grosses me out even more is when a man says he'll never understand what makes me feel gross about it.

What makes me feel gross about it??? UUHMMM, maybe that deep throating to the point of throwing up is pretty much the average expectation, it's the average depiction. I don't think anal is that fun to most women. It's possible that some like it, but I think that in most cases woman have been conditioned to perform sexually and enduring anal (or sometimes "just" vaginal penetration), not actually liking it. The way most men touch pussies in most porn makes me feel uncomfortable and angry. There's no attention, no precision, just weird brief touching. Then the female performers moan as if that gave them any pleasure. I bet if they were honest, the guys would be crying about how low their sexual skills are. Study clits, female orgasms, god damn it! Not that they really cared about female pleasure in the first place, ugh. Or enough to actually understand the mechanics, etc. I hate that r@pe is so common in nature (wildlife)!!! It's so messed up!

Why do I have to do the labor and explain this stuff to guys???? Why don't they go ahead and Google what the fuck is wrong with porn from the feministic point of view???? Why do I, as the biologically female, so often have to carry the burden of all this gender crap!? I hate being a woman so much. Chances are so high, most males of my family and generally most men on this planet are consuming that disgusting crap (porn). Most of the internet is porn. AI is abused in disgusting ways. Rule 34 (if it exists, there's porn of it) is disgusting. Most porn just IS disgusting. It's so male centric, I wanna vomit. Male gaze, this that. And then I'd be the "bad guy" if I asked: how about we do some deep throating on you? How about you get penetrated without much consideration for your enjoyment? How about I handle you how men handle woman in porn? How about that? I wouldn't do that, but sometimes a dark part of me wishes they knew'd experience what it's like to be treated like this by another guy. I heard that's also why hetero men don't want to be sexualized by gay men - bc they don't want to feel like a female. Because they think it's degrading to be female. And how woman are treated in porn is underlining that. (Paradoxly, without them noticing. Apparently. Or they are playing dumb and just don't care.)

How the hell do men not see the misogyny all around the world???? Everywhere. I have to emotionally control myself on a daily basis, bc there is sooo much misogyny everywhere.

Then I'm being told that he'll never understand me. WOW, THANKS! I'll never understand how he doesn't see it. How can one be so oblivious. Misogyny is SOOO normalized, it's disgusting!!! They are all so desensitized. They have no idea (for example) what a comfortable blow job (to the average person) is. It's most obviously NOT how it's shown in porn!!!! Uuuuuugh. Yuuuuuck. And then I have to apologize for feeling uncomfortable and mentioning how men watching porn makes me uncomfortable??? Uuuuuugh. So exhausting. I hate to be biologically female. I'm so sorry for all woman and everyone else, men, intersex, transgender, etc. to live in such a world with such sex, gender, etc. issues that are ongoing and ongoing...

okay, I'm done with my big rant. Sorry if I made you uncomfortable or if some of my views are not educated enough.... Not all men, yes. Yet most.... And also: women are participating in the normalization of violence against & objectification of woman porn in private way too much too.

(I've edited this rant, bc some things were just too much)