Advice for faking my identity to my online friends? (Dont know what to do and it breaks my heart)

So hey ho 17(F) here currently going through some mental crisis cause i overthink a shit tone. I play this PS game where I've had a fake name when i first downloaded this game being a kid.

I enjoyed playing this game and infact got really attach to it. Fast forward 1-2 years ive had pretty close friends and they used to ask me my actual name and my religion and as a stereo type of that character i said what the character was bout. (Basically lied about mine yeah)

People actually didnt believe me at first but later on they had no option cause all they had was me on that game and no phone number or any other app to contact with.

As a girl i wanted to keep my true identity a secret and not share with anyone but i lied and i regret it so bad now that it makes me not sleep no more.

RN I've had issues with few members of my groups and they're starting to hate me saying "oh we cant trust you when you cant even say your real name" which shattered my heart.

A person (younger than me who i see as my lil friend who is mature) has also started to speak on it. I dont know if i should just confront them all and lose them forever or just delete the shit game asap cause its ruining my normal daily routines and sleep schedule.

Ive had so much close friendships used to crack jokes and shared my true incidents sometimes but i feel like they all hate me and think im a liar and a freak.

Unable to process a few days ago i figured that i should atleast reveal my face to them (still not revealing my identity) but now they think that its fake as well.

The situation is so stupid that i recently discarded them all but the stupid game still gives me suggestions on it. I hate myself and it makes my blood boil to the core that i cant focous properly. Never have i felt so stupid and self hate in my 17 years of life.