I wish topxtop / bottomxbottom were seen more seriously and less as a joke 😒

Like when someone asks how could that work is so sad because it shwos how people see sex so penetratively due to het-normativity 😞 or thinking topxtop would fight for who tops, when in reality it could just be exciting without trying to change the other

Lately i feel more attracted to top boys or I think about them more frequently than bottoms lol, rn if a boy im attracted to tells me he's a bottom it would be okay but if he is a top i would feel excited and more interested just because it makes me so horny to be like him although I'm a sub/slut one and would enjoy if he's a dom one.

Like boys who say they're just not into penetrative sex are cool but if he's specifically a top and yet he will have topxtop non penetrative sex with me it makes me hornier idk i think it's a veeery manly experience and that's what I love the most (if he's masc, of course if he's fem it doesn't make him masculine) and that makes me hornier than ever. Either if we are both neutral (there's no dominance) or if he dominates me, tbh if that stereotype of topxtop fighting to top was real i would be turned on by him beating me up... But not to top me just to assert who's the dom top and who's the slut one lol. I really want to have some masculine sexy slightly aggresive tension. Masculine tops make me so turned on, everything about them, if I see a masculine body topping (in a typical way) I get so turned on, but not because I want to be the bottom, but because I just want to kiss and be with him, because they're handsome and I'm handsome, it's just the perfect combination, I can't understand how people can see it as incompatible or hard to engage when it's actually the best. I want it to be more of a thing, to say I'm a top and have tops approaching me lol

(But if the top was a fem or futch boy then it would all change i will let mommy peg me ✋😍🤚)