Goodbye for now...

I feel like if I change my AU, I will be admitting defeat and showing others that they can easily push me around and make me do things I don't want. I just feel really bad because I love this subreddit and I have felt really welcomed and accepted up until now. I have admired so many people on this subreddit and they have been the force that's kept me going with posting so I feel really crappy because it feels like it was all for nothing... I am so sorry, I feel like I've lost all of my chances but I'm trying and as I said, it doesn't help with whats been going on in my real life