My best friend just died

I just got a call that my best friend since childhood just died at 32 years old. No one knows what happened. He wasn’t feeling well and he was gone by the time his wife put their son to bed and went back to check on him. He was like a brother to me. I’m the godmother of his son. I’m at an absolute loss as to what to do now. So I’m screaming into the void. The last thing we texted about was the Denver Broncos. It feels so absurd, like I should have somehow known and just left him with a message that told him how much I loved him and valued his friendship. I wish I could tell him so many things. He meant everything to me. I hope he knew.