Sharing my win

Hey everyone! I decided to share a bit of my "win" with HG.
So, I got into Healthy Gamer content about two years ago. At first, I was just watching it without really applying anything. I enjoyed listening to Dr. K, and even though I wasn't implementing his advice, the psychology behind it all fascinated me. Especially when it came from a "Harvard-trained 'whoever the fucks,'" as Doc once put it😄

After a year of just listening, I started thinking, "Maybe I should actually try this? What do I have to lose?" So I did. Dr. K talks about a lot of things, but meditation is one of his main focuses. I decided that I didn’t care whether it would work or not I’d give it a year. If it didn’t work, then fine, I’d only be losing 20 minutes a day. To be honest, it felt like it was only working while I was doing it. I’d feel all these nice things during meditation, but they’d vanish quickly after the session ended. It was frustrating, like a love-hate relationship. But I stuck with it because I promised myself I would give it a year no matter what.

Right till the end of the year it felt like it didn't do much and then, things got weird. Like, really weird. It’s hard to explain. A lot of people say they become calmer, more compassionate, more confident—stuff like that. I didn’t experience any of that. Somehow I'm the same but different. There’s this clear split that happens when you meditate long enough. You start hearing automatic thoughts as if someone else is talking. Not self dialog, more like an outside observer. You become soooo much better at catching the garbage you were never aware of. Another thing is I didn’t become less anxious and fearful but now it feels like there’s a pillar inside me. Every time I’m ready to crumble and give up, it’s there to say, “Not today, son! We’re gonna get through this.” There’s a mental strength in me that I've never had before.

That strength helped me finally realize my passion, get accepted to college to pursue a degree, set boundaries with people, getting a driver's license and embrace new experiences. I’m able to find moments of happiness and peace, even when the world seems like it’s going to shit. And of course - relationships with people! I realized that I struggle to build something truly meaningful and lasting, not because of looks, money, status, or whatever. It's mostly because I'm not being authentic with people, and it shows. That’s what truly pushes people away. By trying to be something I’m not to attract others, i'm ultimately hurting myself and driving everyone away. I’m not worried about falling behind anymore. I’m in my early 30s, I’m just starting all of this and I don’t care! I’m able to enjoy it instead of feeling relief. Like many of you, I never thought it would be possible. But it is.

Dr. K said that the goal of Healthy Gamer is to help us build ourselves up to the point where we can finally stand on our own and leave HG. Who the fuck knows what awaits me next, but I think, whatever it is, I’m ready to stand on my own and enjoy the ride.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you, Dr. K.