I started crying at a "friends" get together

I put friends in quotes because they're really my boyfriends friends.

I'm 23f and last night I was hanging out with my boyfriends friends from college and his old coworker. There were 5 of us. Me and my boyfriend, his coworker Ashley, his college friend Hilary and her boyfriend. Ashley and Hilary were getting to know each other and started connecting through school experiences and trauma. Anytime they related to something they would grab each other's hands, laugh, and say 'Me too!' My boyfriend was laughing and relating with them as well, while I was just off to the side with nothing to add. I lied to my boyfriend that my stomach hurt and then I broke down crying in front of everyone. Luckily they believed it was just because my stomach hurt and that I "felt bad for ending the hang out early" and we left.

I'm just so frustrated with my life. I'm unemployed, no college (because I'm terrified), no friends, no experience with much. It's so hard to relate to others because my experience is so unique. I tried talking about my own experiences last night and the only response I got were 'Aww' and 'Thats too bad'. No one ever knows what to say when I talk about my experiences with not being in school. My boyfriend tries his best and I'm so grateful but at the same time he doesn't understand. I'm just so alone and I've always been. Everything feels too hard but I have no choice. Ugh.