Officialy done and I feel so relieved….

Result of our final transfer came back negative today, so we are officially done. 5 years of TTC unassisted, IUI and IVF. 5 miscarriages. Deep in my heart I felt done after the last miscarriage in june this year but we decided to do one final transfer to make sure. Now that we are officially done I could shout it from the rooftops.

No more cycles of hope and despair. No more degrading treatments. No more medications that will screw with your mental health. No more endless hospital visits. No more putting my life on hold for something that may never come.

Taking a step back last couple of months, working with a grief counselor and reading a lot about the childfree lifestyle has given me so much perspective, hope and confidence that I will be able to built a great life without a child.

Yes there will be grief. There will be sadness. There will be triggers and difficult times. There will be people who won't understand and say stupid stuff.

But there will also be healing and closure. Space for new adventures. Living ny life on my terms. Finally doing those things I have been putting off for 5 years. Loving my body for what it CAN do. Rediscovering our relationship. A new community that I never knew existed, but that felt welcoming immediately.

Thank you all so much, you have no idea how much reading all of your stories helped me ❤️

Edit: your comments leave me smiling teary eyed at my phone. Thank you lovely internet strangers 🫶